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Celebrity Parent Article - Jessica Rowe

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Emma Tom and Jessica RoweI was thrilled when Emma asked me to launch her book, “Attack of the Fifty Foot Hormones”, as I’ve been a fan of Emma’s work for a long time and as I’m a huge supporter of what she is doing with her book- which is offering an emotional survival guide for mums to be and new mums. Nothing prepares you for the massive changes that having a baby does to your life. Being a mum is the best thing that I’ve ever done- but it’s also the hardest and most challenging. It’s essential for new mums to realise they’re not the only ones struggling with having a new baby.. There is quite a lot of information around about the physical changes that happen once you become pregnant- but I can’t think of many books that offer a guide to your soul. Emma’s book does this beautifully with humour, honesty and plenty of practical, sensible advice.

I suffered post natal depression shortly after the birth of my first child, Allegra. I realised something was terribly wrong when she was about six weeks old. I was feeling like I was losing my mind. And it was more than just sleep deprivation. I was having scary, obsessive thoughts and I was terribly anxious. Breastfeeding was an absolute nightmare and the career that I had spend a lifetime building up was being pulled out from under me. I tried to struggle on, on my own, keeping my feelings to myself for a couple of weeks. But they wouldn’t go away. I realised that I had to talk to my husband about how I was feeling. It was one of the hardest conversations I’ve ever had. I felt that I was letting him down, and my new darling daughter. Once though I voiced how I was feeling I felt a strange feeling of relief. The hardest thing for me, someone who had always been in control and strong, was admitting that I couldn’t cope and needed help. The next day I rang my obstrecian, she saw me that afternoon, and she arranged for me to see a psychiatrist later that week. Then, with the help of my loved ones, medication and regular visits to my psychiatrist I started to see a way through the fog, the obsessive thoughts disappeared and I felt like myself again. I still see my doctor and was obviously anxious that I would again have PND following the birth of my second baby, Giselle. Thankfully, again with the help of my doctor and loved ones, I haven’t had PND this time around.

If you’re worried about yourself, or a loved one talk to someone- it might be your GP, midwife, partner or close friend that you can reach out to. Please, don’t suffer in silence, on your own. PND can be so isolating- as everyone is telling you this must be the best time of your life- when it sure doesn’t feel like it! I know that by getting onto it early- I was able to recover faster and enjoy being a mum. Being a mum is hard enough at times without battling depression. Beyondblue have a terrific website that has information about PND www.beyondblue.org.au

I’m passionate about removing the stigma of mental illness, I grew up with a mum who has bipolar disorder, and than having had PND myself, I feel very strongly about talking openly about my experiences. I would like to see mental illness treated like any other illness. People with physical ailments get sympathy, understanding and aren’t embarrassed about seeking treatment. I would like to see the same for people with a mental illness.

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  1. You are an amazing lady !
  2. Hi Jessica,

    Thank you for speaking out about PND, it is so debilitating and you are right, it does feel like there is a stigma attached to it that makes it difficult to talk to anyone.

    Best of luck changing societies view about mental illness, it needs to happen. When the fear of what is happening to your mind is added to the pressure of feeling like a failure, feeling like you need to hide the "problem" and feeling unable to talk about it makes the struggle far worse.

    Anyone suffering, take Jessica's advice, talk to someone, they might not understand what you are going through, but they can be there to support you.

    Most importantly seek some medical advice. The symptoms can be treated and there is a range of options available for treatment - not all treatments involve medications.

    Michelle
  3. I think it is amazing and brave what Jessica has talked about. I myslef suffered after a traumatic experience when a man tried to mollest my daughter at the age of 11, I thought I had failed as a Mother and unfortunately I did not have the supoport of family, I have 4 wonderful children and applaud mothers for speaking up and letting others know it is ok not to be supermum.
  4. Thank you Jessica for being brutally honest about PND and the stigma of mental illness. Mental illness of any kind is mostly swept under the carpet in our "modern" society & the wider public is so undereducated about the reality of life with a mental illness. It's not just all "in your head" and will go away if you think nice thoughts. And yes, if it was a broken arm, sympathy and help would abound, but because it's an insidiuous unseen affliction its higly stigmatised. Thank you for sharing your experience and encouraging others to take action. It's never too late to seek help.
  5. I too suffer from depression. The worst part for me was being pregnant though as I suffered badly from Ante-natal depression. Imagine hating every second of being pregnant! I was afraid to say anything as pregnancy is supposed to be this wonderful perfect experience. I am pregnant again and depressed again but coping ok.
    Jessica, thankyou for being honest and sharing your story. We mums need to hear it.
  6. Thank you for sharing your story, Jessica. I had PND with my three children and I was too scared to speak - admitting I had failed as a mother, terrified they'd be taken away from me, petrified of the further loss of control if medicos took over my life with medication and/or hospitalisation. I was finally hospitalised when my third child was 2 yo - I collapsed from exhaustion and really what was a mental breakdown, literally. I spent nine weeks in hospital. It was the best thing I could have done. I rejoined the world ready to be with my children and to live my life again. It took another year to fully recuperate. I wish I had been braver and asked for help so much sooner. You're right. The stigma attached to mental illness makes it so much harder to share how we feel. I didn't talk to family/friends/professionals. Not anyone. I was so ashamed. I hope others will be able to move beyond that self-hate and fear and reach out and find the support they crave and need. Best wishes, M.

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